I was recovering.Basking in the sunset , the tender yellow orange panorama of tints and shades,emotions and life around me . This was a distant ,well taken care of disease by me ,all the symptoms – All the prerequisites . ALL .…
I was never going to go through this pain again. I was never going to trust , I was never going to smile and never going to love like that. A bitch called destiny it is . A life called fate . ..And when fate recurs back ,it hits back soft with the helluva of emotions and the mental tartar inside your system . Seemed more like a dj night inside my head , with thoughts,decibeling over all and about . making me rethink of things.making me rethink of people . Making me rethink of situations. Was this my mode of reconciliation? So much at the cost of a little thought . My cerebral muscles could paralyse or swell some unfateful day considering the serious hullabuloo shadowing my mind.
Was I going insane or was I seriously recovering ? The one thing that did strike me by the warp was ..Notice. Notice was getting over me . Was I just a soul lost in the massive untrustworthy human racket in and around the place or was it me that was different ? Was it me ? How could it be that I was the one who was being noticed ? I had lost myself in the ocean of expression,deep , thought , dark but unnervingly trying to be pleasant to me ? Was this my share of basking in glory? I was , going to get over it . I was going to trust..I was about to learn..life ..tender..life ..promisingly was just about ..err.. love.Life could get just about beautiful . Sometimes , probably sometimes life puts me to thought . Sometimes , sometimes life is kind. Sometimes ..probably some of the coming times ..it would do me a lesson..somehow it would…The one that could turn a new leaf on me .
I am me. Distinct.Unique. The soul that I could be, The heart I am . The She in me . Realization and a little more of tingling wonderful romance of thoughts ..serene …inspiring.The golden leaf had turned over to me .